i fucked up. big time. like, i went against everything that i have ever said or preached about relationships. it makes me sick to my stomach. i had myself conveinced. it looks like i need to get my life together.
my parents are now my mom and dad
dad doesn't really exist after 4pm
a person i care very deeply about may walk out
the bills are due and i have no money
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all of this has to be taken care of with 20 credit hours under my belt. according to some OSU calculation i need to spend 80 hrs/wk on homework and studying if i want to earn a 4.0 with these 20 credits. haha. i have a full time job that i pay to work at. la la.
oh well, the future is bright and that keeps me going.
i want to list a few things i am thankful for in no particular order:
- the roof over my head
- my loving, caring, and supportive mother
- music
- the cold arizona that i am drinking
- the nice clothes that i am wearing
- the nike glasses i have to make me see clearly
- my unique red hair
that felt good. i love you.
